Warning for readers:
This is by no means a useful article on what I learned during my trips. It is informative only insofar as you know what can happen to you if you have the travel bug and you are back home. Other than that, it’s just a chaotic spirit on the screen. So do not hesitate to jump it if you don’t want to read a very bad copy of James Joyce Stream of Consciousness. I will not be angry with you, I promise you 🙂
Relativity theory
So wise.
“When you run a nice girl, an hour seems to be a second. When you sit on a red mass, a second seems to be an hour. It is relativity. “ Albert Einstein
RELATIVITY. Beautifully explained for me by the master. In different terms, of course, this is what is happening here: Back to Reality, far from my “parallel universe”, it’s as if I were sitting on a red heated ash.
Since I was back, time has been mysteriously. It’s been a little over 2 weeks and I have the impression of being here for 1 year already. No, more precisely: It is as if I had never left my house in the first place.
Weird huh? I did not stop asking myself the meaning of this, I have a million questions about the reasons why I live this, but it is damn difficult to start explaining it.
I was supposed to write on my return home when I arrived, but I was completely stuck. I didn’t know what to write (not that now it improved)
Eight months of someone’s life does not seem much, but 8 months of my life have passed and everything has changed for me, so Why devil I feel like he was never leaving?
Now you understand my dilemma, right? I look very much like someone with a double personality right now!
To be completely honest, I write this post, but I have absolutely no idea where it will lead.
Chaos Theory
So … Haven’t I learned anything in the last 8 months? Of course, I did, but not only that. These are not the lessons you learn, this is the person you become. I always evaluate myself to understand what devil has happened to me. It’s a fact: I’m different. Very different from the person I was 8 months ago. But I can’t put my finger on it yet.
It is as if someone asked me to put 1000 words all the reasons why I am the person I am today of the day of my birth: impossible.
It’s funny, it’s that I thought of this post for days, generally looking at the white screen for a while to close it again. And then, a few minutes before falling asleep, My mind is unleashed and I find the right words exact. In English, nothing less! It’s a joke, my pre-summary mind thinks in a beautiful perfect English, too bad that no one has yet invented a recorder of thoughts, like the morning after I do not remember anything.
So today, I woke up and I however: Ok what do you know? Screw my beautiful perfect words! I am not perfect and I am allowed to put chaos and disorder on my own blog from time to time.
It’s me now, so it doesn’t matter.
This is where the theory of chaos is useful, well not really, but it gives me a certain degree of comfort to know that Even chaos has its own rules!
The “adjustment period”
I don’t think I’m the only one to feel disoriented,, A bit out of words And confused After a long-term trip, right?!
Every morning, I still have these 2 seconds, when I open my eyes in the dark, and I have to focus to realize where I am at the moment.
Am I still in Thailand?
Am I in London?
Am I in Sardinia?
Am I in a random inn somewhere in Asia?
No jokes. It’s just about 2 seconds of course, and over the days, I realize where I am faster, with the kind help of the frightening fur beast that was sleeping on the side 🙂
It is very disorienting, but exciting at the same time. Because that’s exactly what I wanted to do when I left the house 17 years ago!
But I have to admit it, every time I have to adapt to a new path (or come back to an old one), I fight, And I find myself unbalanced for a few weeks.
What I learned is that Adaptation to a new total situation is, paradoxically, much easier than returning to an old. Or maybe it’s not weird after all: with the new ones also come excitement, discovery, thrill. With the old comes the memories, the ancient feelings crash with the new ones. And you must adjust them in yourself but also with the The people around you, who have remained exactly the same, when you feel like you have advanced a hundred years.
Some people are happy to be back and stay for good. Some others, after such an experience, realize that there is no place like the house and that they come back happy to their usual routine.
Not me. Obviously.
New life, new plans!
I knew of course my travel bug, but I did not imagine that it would have been so strong. I accept it now and continue. It’s not easy at first, but Know that this “stop” is simply temporaryAllows me to enjoy every moment of my life as usual.
A great help also comes from the fact that I know that I will leave very soon: in less than 10 days, I will be back London And then it will be Asia Again!
I am thinking about my itinerary right now because some things have changed since I was back, but I will reveal my final / revised plans as soon as they are official 🙂
Let’s say that I appreciate the moment with a foot already out of my door, heading to this second stage of my trip with a big question mark of what it will happen for the coming months. Still scary, maybe more than the The first time I took offBut exciting at the same time!
Life is an adventure, so the adventure starts again and see where it leads!
How was your return home after a long-term trip? Did you have trouble adjusting your old life or was it easy? Very curious to know your thoughts!
